Better Than Candy… part 5 (Matt & Aaron’s Valentine Story)

I’m posting this a little early today.  Tomorrow I am very excited to host M.A. Church who will be by to chat about her new release, Wrapped in Leather.  Please come by to say hi to her!

In the meantime…back to the boys…

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We made it through the holidays drama-free.  I spent Thanksgiving with the Mendez clan and thoroughly enjoyed myself.  It was hard not to love his family.  They were very warm and welcoming.  Their large family home outside of Baltimore was filled with the fragrant smells of turkey and all the trimming with a dash of Latin flair.  Spanish was spoken as frequently as English and kids ran down the halls and in between adults like demented monkeys.   His brother and dad were big sports fans so conversation tended to center around football.  There was no drama, no awkwardness about being their son and brother’s boyfriend.  They loved Aaron and they accepted me without question.

 

I went back to Pittsburgh for Christmas.  While I enjoyed seeing everyone, I couldn’t shake the feeling there was an undercurrent I couldn’t quite grasp.  It was as though my parents were trying too hard to make things “normal”.  I mentioned Aaron’s name in passing a couple of times in conversation with my brother and sisters, but my mom’s watchful eye kept me from officially coming out to them.  Without words, she was pleading for me not to make waves or create any awkwardness during the holiday.  I went along with it because she was so adamant but I hated being back to lying about my life to keep the peace.  I wanted everyone who mattered to know I was with Aaron, whether my parents acknowledged it or not.  They were going to have a hard time ignoring it when we moved in together after the New Year, I mused. 

 

Chapter 4

“The living together part… are you sure?  I mean… I want to.  I do.  I just want you to remember it’s me you’d be living with.  Are you ready for that?  Not that long ago you were telling me I’m high maintenance and crazy and…I doubt that will change much.”

 

“Yeah, I’m ready for it, baby.  I like your brand of crazy.”  I was smiling so hard my face hurt. 

 

We decided before Christmas to move in together.  His place was too small and mine came with roommates who were ready to relocate as well.  Aaron wanted to stay in the Dupont Circle area where he currently lived.  It was gay friendly and centrally located.  Worked for me.  I honestly didn’t care where… I was just happy he said yes.

 

“What if it doesn’t go well?  What if you get sick of me?  Ugh…or what if you’re too messy?  I don’t do well with chaos not of my own making.  What if…?”

 

I put a finger to his lips.

 

“Shh.  Aaron.  I can make no guarantees this won’t be a fucking disaster, but…”  I reached for his chin when he looked away from me, seeming upset by my honesty.  “But, I don’t think it will be.  We aren’t total idiots.  I know things about you…you are a clean freak and you listen to techno club music at an excruciatingly loud volume.  I, on the other hand, am not a total slob but dishes in the sink don’t bug me the way they bug you…”

 

“My skin crawls thinking about it…” 

 

“I know.  Look, we’ll just have to compromise, right?  I’ll try to be neater, and you’ll have to agree not to blow my eardrums everyday.  And then there’s television.”

 

“What about it?”  He tried for nonchalance but the guy was addicted to his reality programs.  He peered through the longish hair covering his right eye.

 

“I like sports.  We’ll have to share the big screen baby.”

 

 

 

I leaned back to observe Aaron and tried to gage whether or not I’d scared him off.

 

“You aren’t going for the easy sell, are you Matty?”  Aaron crossed his arms over his chest.  I laughed.

 

“All I’m saying is that we’re different, which is probably why we’re together in the first place.  Sometimes those differences may make living in the same place a little challenging but the truth is… I wouldn’t have suggested it if I didn’t think it would work.”

 

“I want to believe you, but I think you like a challenge too.”

 

“Maybe, but I’m not a glutton for punishment.  I love you, Aaron. We’re already practically living together except I’m paying rent for an apartment in Georgetown I’m never at and I haven’t given you a dime in rent.  It’s financially a good move too.  See?”

 

“Do I get to decorate?”

 

He was back to feigning nonchalance, but it wasn’t working.  I rolled my eyes at his purely rhetorical question.  Of course he would decorate.  He knew I didn’t give a shit about color schemes and accessorizing.  Aaron jumped suddenly from my lap and returned a minute later resuming his perch straddling my thighs with his cock grinding against mine in invitation.  I had a feeling he wanted to tell me something and not just that he was horny.  I waited patiently for him to speak.  Instead he leaned into me and gently kissed my lips.  I smiled but still waited, knowing he had something on his mind.  He picked up my hand and turned my palm face up before dropping a candy heart in it.  I chuckled.  I hadn’t seen these since Jay found the box in the kitchen a few months ago.  It was officially pre-Valentine season though.  They would be easier to come by now.  I looked at the pink heart in my hand and read “Gracias”. 

 

“You’re welcome.  How did you find these in Spanish?”  I knew there was more going on than him buying these in the language of his heritage.  I just wasn’t sure what it could be.

 

Aaron shrugged and slipped the candy between my lips.  “Oh Matty, you can find anything online.  And don’t worry.  We’ll find an amazing place and I’ll be sure to decorate it “macho chic”!”

 

I didn’t know what that meant but I was pretty sure I didn’t care as long as we were together. 

 

 

“I’m James.  So nice to meet you both.  Richie told me to take you to see 7A.   It’s absolutely exquisite!  You will love!”

 

Richie?  The name sounded familiar, but I couldn’t place it.  I gave up and followed.  James led us to a brightly lit floor chatting amicably with Aaron about the friendly residents and fabulous amenities one only finds in newer construction.  I kept quiet wondering if all these wonderful things were affordable.  I didn’t want to spoil either of their fun.  James was unfailingly professional and extremely enthusiastic.  Aaron was the perfect audience.  When James opened the door to 7A with a flourish, Aaron gasped appreciatively as if on cue.  I rolled my eyes and stepped inside. 

 

I almost gasped too.  It was incredible.  The floor plan was open with wide plank hardwood flooring and high ceilings.  A state of the art kitchen with an island sat at one end of the large room while a small fireplace denoted the living area on the opposite side.   A bank of floor to ceiling windows framed one long expanse before curving to include a small portion of the adjoining kitchen wall as well.  The walls were a brilliant white (which would be the first thing Aaron would seek permission to change, I bet), the wood floors were a light faux distressed grey while the kitchen featured black granite countertops and black state of the art appliances.  Three small pendant lights hung over the island.  Everything about the space was beautifully understated, shiny, new and modern.

 

“There are two bedrooms and two bathrooms.  But the best thing is that they are on opposite ends of the main living area.  So should you have houseguests, you aren’t on top of one another.  I’m going to leave you two to explore on your own for a few while I check on another unit.  I’ll be back in ten!”

 

The moment the door shut, Aaron lunged into my arms.  His hands were everywhere.  On my ass, in my hair, down my back, up my chest.  He fused his mouth to mine.  I pulled back slightly to look into his luminous eyes. 

 

“Stop.  We can’t do anything here.”  I kissed his nose to soften my words. 

 

“I know.  Good thing we took a little of the edge off before we ventured out, don’t you think?  I’m so fucking horny and this place is making it worse!”  Aaron stood on his toes and licked my jaw, kissing a path down my neck before he looked back up at me with an innocent expression.  Asshole.  I adjusted myself and stepped away from him.

 

“This is really nice, babe.  But…”

 

“I know what you’re going to say, but let’s not think about that right now!”  He jumped back and danced away into the kitchen.  “Just imagine, Matty… You wake up in the morning and I do my best “I Love Lucy” impression, “Good morning, dear, would you like a cup of coffee?”  I’ll present you with a lovely cup of your favorite roast before I turn back to this outrageously gorgeous stovetop to create a culinary masterpiece for you.  What would you like?  Maybe an omlette?  Nothing blase though.  No!  I’ll chop red peppers and sweet onions and I’ll…”

 

“Will you be wearing an apron?”

 

Aaron’s eyes lit up at my unexpected question.  He giggled and batted his eyes mischievously.

 

“Yes.  And nothing else.”

 

I gulped audibly.  Damn. 

 

“Aar…”

 

“Can you picture it?  I don’t just mean the naked omlette.  The two bedrooms are ideal!  You can play your guitar or use the other room as an office and say I’m tired and want to rest in our spacious master bedroom… no worries!  Win win!  It would be great for entertaining too!  I could have my nephews over!  Or even your family!  What do you think?”

 

“Aar…”

 

A soft click at the front door announced James’ timely return.  Aaron took one more longing glance around the space before we both followed him out. James urged us to decide quickly if possible as another couple wanted to see the condo tomorrow for a second time.  

 

“We understand.  I don’t think you told us the monthly rent.”

 

James gave me a blank stare and then turned to Aaron.

 

“Didn’t Richie talk to you about…?”

 

“Yes yes.  Don’t worry.  We’ll talk and I promise to call you back tonight!”

 

Something was up and as usual, I was a step or two behind.  I let it go.  Numbers didn’t lie.  If we couldn’t afford it, we couldn’t afford it.  Period.  It didn’t matter how amazing the place was.

 

“So, how much?”  I gave him a sideways glance as we made our way by foot back to his small one-bedroom apartment nearby.

 

He gave me the amount and I almost choked.  It was a deal, but it was still way more than I paid now.   It turned out that Richie, the owner, was the artist friend of Aaron’s I’d met almost a year ago at a photography exhibit.  He and his partner were moving to Europe for one year and needed to rent their newly purchased condo.  When they heard Aaron and I were in the market, they made a special deal because they preferred leasing to people they knew and trusted.

 

“Does that mean no?”

 

He looked crushed.  Fuck.  I did the calculations in my head quickly and told him my concerns.  I didn’t hold anything back.  If we had to deal with financial catastrophe right from the start, we would be doomed.  Aaron paid a lot to live on his own, so it was beneficial for him to pay half of the rent Richie was asking.  He offered to put more in to make it work because it was still less than he paid now.  My pride wouldn’t let me agree.  It was important to me that we split the cost evenly.  There was a part of me that wanted to be the guy who paid more, the guy to take care of him.  He’d rake me over the coals for thinking it in the first place, so I wisely kept my mouth shut. 

 

“We have to decide tonight?” 

 

He nodded.  I took a deep breath.  Why the fuck not? 

 

“Okay, let’s do it.”

 

“Really?”

 

Aaron stopped in the middle of the crowded sidewalk on Connecticut Avenue and gave me one of his full-watt beautiful smiles.  My heart skipped a beat as I looked down at his gorgeous face.  Knowing I had something to do with that smile made me feel like a fucking superhero.  I had never been one for public displays but this time I didn’t care who saw.  I kissed his full lips then his nose before placing my arm over his shoulder and tucking him close to me as we walked back to his old apartment.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Better Than Candy… part 4 (Matt & Aaron’s Valentine Story)

Hey gang… here’s a little piece featuring Jay from Better Than Chance!  Enjoy!

*This guy kinda looks like him, right?

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Chapter 3

After a couple of months I had to admit my “coming out” fresh start was more of a non-start where my family was concerned.  There was no theatrical showdown with tears and ugliness.  No one disowned me.   They just ignored my revelation entirely. At first I didn’t notice.  I was frankly too busy and when you factored in the geographical obstacle of Pittsburgh being over two hundred miles away from DC, it became a matter of out of sight, out of mind.  I didn’t begin to clue in until after I found out I’d passed the bar in late October.  It was a major milestone and my parents were extremely proud. 

“Oh honey!  We’re thrilled!”  My mom was practically screaming in my ear.  I could picture her jumping up and down in elation.

“We’re very proud of you, Matt.  When will see the new family lawyer next?  Will we have to wait till the holidays?”  Dad was on another line and the connection sounded a little weak. 

“Probably.  I was just assigned to help out on a new government contract one of the partners is preparing.”  I smiled into the phone when I heard my mom squeal on the other end.  “The thing is… there’s a deadline which may make it difficult for me to come home for Thanksgiving.”

There was a stilted silence on the line for a second longer than normal.  My dad filled it in quickly with a comment about not working too hard, but he was obviously trying to avoid any awkwardness.  He signed off claiming he had something pressing to take care of in his home office, leaving me to my uncharacteristically silent mother.

“You there, Mom?”

“Yes.  If you can’t come home, where will you go for Thanksgiving?” 

“Aaron’s parents’, probably.”

Dead silence.

And that’s when the proverbial light bulb went on.

I’d noticed in past conversations when I brought up his name in a general sense like  “Aaron and I went to…” or  “Aaron made dinner and…”, the topic was changed.  I figured it was a matter of time and they weren’t ready to hear about Aaron and me in any detail. 

The holidays were sacred to my mother…an extremely important traditional season for family gatherings.  She wouldn’t be able to ignore Aaron’s presence in my life during this time.  If a showdown was imminent, this was most likely when it would occur.  I sighed deeply and massaged the bridge of my nose hoping for the best. 

“Honey, I understand you’re busy, but… the holidays are for family and since he is a new friend of yours maybe…”

“Mom.  This is a weird conversation to have over the phone, but I’m going to try…  I…”  I stopped and looked out the huge picture window in Aaron’s small apartment.  He’d gone out for a run and if I wanted to finish this conversation before he returned I needed to figure out how to firmly but kindly deal with someone I loved and respected without causing unnecessary hurt.  I was like a bull in a china shop when it came to important emotional exchanges, so chances were good I’d fuck it up somehow.

“Mom, Aaron is my boyfriend.  He isn’t a random friend.  I don’t know what the holidays will be like with my work schedule but…”

“Okay, I understand.  I have to hang up now.  I have something on the stove. I love you Matt and I’m so very proud of you.  Bye hon.”

What the fuck?  Her “I understand” was definitely code for exactly the opposite, but I didn’t know how to handle it.

“You alright?”

I turned at the sound of a soft Southern infused voice.  It was Jay, Aaron’s best friend and the look of concern on his handsome face told me he’d heard some of my conversation with my mother. 

“Sorry to barge in.”  He jiggled a set of keys and then tossed them in the orange bowl on the small kitchen table.  “I knocked but you didn’t hear.  I told Aaron I’d drop these off.  He said you needed a spare and… what’s troublin’ you, honey?”

Jay was a lot like Aaron in many ways.  He was an out and proud confident gay man with a joie de vie.  He was also smart, funny and really good-looking. If anyone told me he modeled for Ralph Lauren ads, I’d believe them. Jay was a couple of inches taller than me with a slim toned swimmer’s body.  He was always friendly and easy company, but he was extremely protective of those he loved, like Aaron.  Thank God he liked me.

“Family shit.”  I shook my head as I walked over to greet him. 

“Matt, I sympathize darling.  No disrespect intended here, but you know Peter’s mother’s a shrew… so if you need any advice on how to deal with difficult mommas, I may not have all the answers but believe me, I’ve learned a few tricks over the years.” 

I laughed.  I’d heard some funny stories about Jay’s long-time partner, Peter’s wacky Italian Catholic mother.  No doubt he did have some experience to draw from. 

“My mom’s not that bad.  She’s just not used to the idea of me being… with a man.  I knew this wouldn’t be easy but I have a feeling it’s harder than I thought.” 

“It’s difficult.  Certainly.  But you have to keep your life separate from theirs.  Ask yourself if you’d be happier living the life they want for you…”

“That’s just it!  No one talks about this shit where I’m from.  No one asks what you want out of life unless it’s in a general way… you know, what do you want to be when you grow up?  Where do you want to live?  The rest… it’s assumed, expected.  Me telling my mom about Aaron has upset some kind of balance and I don’t know how to get it back.  Or if I ever will.”

Jay nodded solemnly before heading toward the small galley style kitchen.  He pulled out a bottle of wine and held it up in question.  I smiled wanly and sat at the table while he poured us each a glass of chardonnay.

“Maybe your mom is more like mine… with the big difference being that I came out at eighteen and while I wasn’t overt like someone else we know and love, it wasn’t a giant surprise I was queer either.  Your mom needs to meet him, Matt.  She needs to see you two together, see how happy you are, but even then… it will take some time.”

“Are things better with Peter’s mom?  I mean, has it gotten easier with time?”  I took a sip and almost spit it back out.  Jay’s expression was comically hysterical.

“She’s a dragon.  A five foot two witch.  My personal nightmare come to life.  Thank God she lives in another state!  The truth is I’m never going to win her over.  It kills me on one hand because I’m so good at mergers and acquisitions of a friendly nature, but I will never win against her old religious doctrines.  So I’m as kind as can be.  Occasionally I feel like I can taste blood in my mouth from biting my tongue so hard and other times, I can laugh.  But I love Peter.  I won’t give him up to make her happy.  It’s that simple for me.”  Jay stood to take the bottle of wine back to the kitchen.

He and Peter had been together for years now.  Both were strikingly handsome and tall, but after that, it was a matter of opposites attract.  Where Jay was friendly and open, Peter was intense and serious.  I was pondering the many ways Aaron and I were different when I heard a rattling noise. 

“What the… Where did you…?”

The conversation candy hearts.  Oh.  I could feel my face heat at the memory of what we’d done in the kitchen the last time the ubiquitous candy box appeared out of nowhere.  Jay’s wide, knowing grin told me no explanations were needed.  He took a sip of his wine peering at me over the rim thoughtfully.

“That boy is a hopeless romantic.”

“Huh?”

“I know Aaron.  I’m thinking he saved these from last Valentine’s Day… that’s all.”

“He said he found them but…”

“No way.  He doesn’t save crappy candy from a holiday rendered meaningless if you don’t have someone to share it with.  These are a good luck charm.”  Jay expression was a touch smug but there was a bit of warning in his eye.  He was silently letting me know if I broke Aaron’s heart, candy or otherwise, he’d kick my ass.  “I wouldn’t be surprised if these lasted until your first real Valentine Day together.” 

Jay quickly changed the subject and although I was grateful for the topic change, I loved the sentiment behind his words.  I knew Aaron loved me but was afraid to say the words aloud.  Our beginning as a couple was slightly clouded by the specter of my “coming out” and all indications were that until something was resolved with my family, Aaron might not trust that we’d make it in the long run.  Maybe Jay was right about the candy hearts being a silly talisman to ward off real life issues.  We started seeing each other romantically around Valentine Day, so it oddly made sense that Aaron would superstitiously keep a memento of hope for our future in a heart shaped form.   The sweet vulnerability of the thought alone made me love him just a little bit more.

  

 

 

Better Than Candy… part 3 (Matt & Aaron’s Valentine Story)

I think you all will like this one… let me know!

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Better Than Candy by Lane Hayes

Chapter 1 cont…

              Later that night, we lay naked together in bed talking.  It was late and both of us were drifting to sleep.  I was about to turn off the light when Aaron asked a question that brought my mom’s little news flash back to the fore front of my mind. 

“So, did your mom ask why you were making dinner?  I mean, wasn’t she a little surprised?” 

“It would be more accurate to say she laughed and asked if you liked Cheerios for dinner.  Yeah, she was surprised.  She figured I was making an effort for someone special.  Her words, not mine.  I mean… you are special.  I’m just repeating… never mind.”

Aaron laid on his side facing me, his head resting in his hands. 

“What you’re trying to say without saying it is that she assumed you were wining and dining a girl.  Correct?”

I let out a deep breath and rolled to face him, running my hand down his toned arms and over the curve of his hip.

“Yes, that is what she assumed, but not what I told her.”  I put a finger over his lips, signaling that I wasn’t finished speaking.  “I have something to tell you.”

He waited unmoving.  He may have even been holding his breath, he was so still.

“She’s coming to visit in ten days.  I’m going to tell her about us.”

Still silent.

“Are you going to say anything?”

“Are you sure?”

“Yes.  I am.  I’m… it’s time.  I don’t want to go on like this, with them assuming one thing and me not correcting them because it’s easier that way.  I want to be honest.”

“You don’t have to do it for me.  You know that, right?”

“I’m doing it for both of us.  We talked about this already.  I’m ready to do it… to come out to my family.  But yeah… I’m scared.” I smiled wanly sliding my fingers through his dark hair.  “What was it like for you?  How old were you?

“Oh please!  You don’t think my parents caught on quick about me?  I mean, seriously!  I used to sneak into my parent’s closet and play dress-up in my mom’s high heels and jewelry.  I talked, walked and dressed just a little more fabulously than other boys right from the start.  I think my family would have been more shocked if I said I was straight.” 

“So how old were you?  A teenager?”

“I didn’t say the words “I’m gay” to them until I was eighteen.  I left for college and when I came back to visit my parents for the first time, I finally felt the desire to say the words in plain English.  Or maybe it was Spanish?  I don’t remember.  I’m gay. They knew.  I think my mom hugged me and my dad asked me to move aside and not block the television.  Once the words were said I felt better for it.”

“You know this won’t be that easy for me.”

“I know, Matty.  I know.”

I didn’t know how this would go down, but I wasn’t going to kid myself into thinking my mom would accept my revelation without issue.  I dreaded emotional scenes.  All I could do was hope for the best.

 

Chapter 2

Why is it that time always moves at a glacier pace when you’re anxious for something to happen and like a freight train when you would give anything to put a few minutes or hours, back on the clock?  My mom called me when her flight landed to let me know she was taking a taxi directly to her hotel.  The plan was for me to meet her there for a drink and then dinner.  She was sure to extend the invite to Aaron.  Well, she meant Erin.  I told her it would just be me tonight, but that maybe she’d meet Aaron another time.

I was a jumble of nerves when I first walked into the opulent hotel lobby with its crystal chandeliers and dark oak paneling. I checked my reflection in one of the massive mirrors flanking the reception area and decided my pressed khaki pants and blue Oxford shirt would do as I made my way to the bar area.  I spotted my mom sitting alone at a table near a window nursing a glass of chardonnay.  

My mom was a pretty woman.  She had a no-nonsense fashion sense, but she took care of herself.  Her hair was a light brown with blond highlights, like mine.  (Although she assured me she paid for her blond.)  She wore it parted to the side and straight to her shoulders.  She’d never been much for anything other than basic cosmetics, lipstick and mascara maybe.  For a woman in her early fifties, she was often mistaken for ten years younger.  

Her maternal senses must have sensed my approach because she turned a second after I’d spotted her and jumped to her feet to greet me.  She wrapped me in one of her signature mom hugs that had me gasping for air.

“Oh honey!  You look so handsome!” 

She signaled a waiter and pulled me back toward her table, pointing to the chair across from her.  Once my order was placed, she turned her full attention back to me.  I smiled and wondered if it looked as weak as it felt.  If I wasn’t careful, she would think something was wrong.  Nothing was wrong, I assured myself.  This would be okay.

“So… how have you been?”

“Great. This is such a treat to come back to see you on my own!  And I’m looking forward to visiting my sister too.  A mini vacation!”

“Dad was too busy at work to join you?” 

“Yes, we’ll come another time with your sisters.  Aunt Jill and I had planned this visit a while ago.  There is never a good time to take time off really.  Your dad will be fine.  The girls will take care of him.”  She grinned, inviting me to share the inside joke.  My twin sisters were trouble.  Not bad trouble, just mischievous.  I smiled in return.  That was the funny thing about family…I had just seen everyone at my graduation and at the time I couldn’t wait to see them off, but now I missed them all over again.  I’ve always known I was lucky to come from a tight-knit, loving group.  They were good people.

I hoped I didn’t lose them.  The thought made me feel nauseous.

“So, you’re busy studying?”

I nodded in response, taking a sip of my vodka tonic and glancing around the still quiet bar.  It was late afternoon so the crowds wouldn’t begin to gather for another hour or so.  We made idle conversation about her flight and the hotel.  I didn’t mind keeping it up for as long as possible.

“What does your friend do?  Did you meet her at school?”

“Huh?”

“Erin, right?”

“Oh, yes.  Um…right.”

“Did the dinner go well?  Did she like it?  Please tell me I’ll get to meet her.  Will she join us for dinner tonight?  You were sure to extend the invitation I hope.  Well, did you?”

“Whoa… geez, mom.” 

“Sorry.  Just interested in my son’s life.” 

We were both quiet for a moment while the waiter delivered my mom’s second glass of wine to our table.

“Well…”

“Mom… I have something to tell you.” 

Fuck!  I couldn’t even look at her.  This was unbelievable.  This was my opportunity and I was already playing this all wrong.  I could feel myself wanting to drop it and change the subject.  I suddenly didn’t know if I could go through with it.  I took a deep breath and looked over at my mom, hating the concern I saw in her eyes.

“What is it, honey?  Are you okay?”

She had an expression on her face that seemed as worried as I was feeling ill.  I tried again.  I looked her in the eye, opened my mouth and nothing came out.  Nothing. 

“Matthew.  You’re scaring me.  What is it?  Honey, look at me.” 

I shook my head.  Oh boy.

“Whatever it is, we’ll figure it out.  Is she pregnant?”

“What?  Who?”  Oh brother.  She was so off base, it should have been funny.  Unfortunately, it wasn’t. 

“Erin!  Or is it someone else?  Or are you sick?  Or…”

“Mom!  Stop!” 

She stopped and looked carefully at me, giving me that mother stare.  The one that says she would figure this out with or without my assistance.  Your choice, Matt. 

“Well.”  Come on, Matt.  Spit it the fuck out.  Tell her.  You are torturing both of you now.

“Matthew.  You can tell me anything.  Please know that.” 

Her expression was so kind, so earnest that I honest to God, felt my eyes prick with tears.  I firmly held them at bay.  This was ridiculous.  I was a twenty-four year old former jock.  I didn’t do tears.  I did the consoling if necessarily but I wasn’t a crier.

“Yes.  Thank you, Mom.”  Another deep breath.  “Okay…here goes.  Mom, Aaron is a man.”

“Huh?”

“My special someone that you want to meet is a man, not a woman.  Mom, I’m gay.”

I did it. 

Wow!  That was really fucking hard.  But I did it.  I said the words out loud to my mom.  I had done this with Curt, Dave, Jason and even some coworkers, but this was my mom.  This was bigger.  I felt proud of myself.  Until I looked across the table and saw the utter confusion written all over her face.

“Gay?  Matt, you aren’t gay.  You’re twenty-four, twenty-five this year.  You’ve had girlfriends and… Are you playing with me?  Is this a joke?”

“No.  No joke.”  I looked around the bar to gauge how much of this conversation was going to reach the tables around us.  We were good for now.

“I…I don’t understand.” 

“Mom.  I am and always have been attracted to men as well as women.  I’ve just never before acted on my attraction to guys.”  (She did not need to know about the incident back in college.)

“Why now?  Who is this person?  Are you even sure?  I mean, maybe it’s a phase or something like that.”

“If it’s a phase, I hope it lasts a lifetime, Mom.  Aaron’s amazing.  A really great, sweet, wonderful guy.  So am I sure?  Yes.  I’m very sure about him.”

Silence. 

I wasn’t as good at reading her as she was at reading me, but my guess was that she was completely stunned.  She didn’t seem to know what to say. 

“I’m sorry, Matt.  I just…this wasn’t what I was expecting.  At all.”  She looked out the window, her fingernails tapping against her wineglass.

“I know.  I’m sure you’re surprised.”

“Surprised would be an understatement.  Who is he?  How did you meet this person?  I just don’t understand how you can suddenly decide to like men instead of women.  Is it possible?” 

Now she’d taken on an air of something akin to anger.  Toward whom, I wasn’t sure?  Me?  Aaron?  Herself for not knowing like a mother should?

“Look.  You are asking me so many questions at once.  Slow down.  I…look, I didn’t just decide I like men.  I always have.  You just didn’t know I felt that way.  I didn’t tell you, because it was irrelevant to who I was at the time.”

“Did you actually like your girlfriends?  Like Kristin.  She was the one you broke up with around Christmas, right?”

She sat back as though suddenly rocked by a realization.

“You broke up with her because of this man!”

“First of all, his name is Aaron.  Second, no.  I broke things off with her because it wasn’t working.  I wasn’t interested.  Being with her felt like a chore.”

 “Because you were interested in him.”

“Partly, but I didn’t start seeing him until January.  Actually, he insisted on moving slowly, so really since February.”

It’s July.  You’ve been involved with a man for months and this is the first I’ve ever heard of it.  Oh my…”

“Mom!  Seriously, I… what did you think I would do?  Call you after our first date?  This hasn’t been easy for me.  I’ve had to come to terms with a lot of things that I’m frankly still trying to get my head around.  But Mom… I’m still me.  Nothing about me… nothing intrinsic about me has changed.  You do know that, right?” 

The silence was thick now and it was hard to breathe.  When she finally spoke, I was on the verge of passing out from lack of oxygen.   Geez, maybe Aaron’s flair for the dramatic was rubbing off on me.

“Matt.  I love you.  Nothing changes.  Ever.” 

And just like that, I could breathe again.

“I won’t lie and say I’m happy to hear all this.  The truth is, I don’t know what to say.  But please never doubt that I love you, sweetheart.”

Tears were threatened again as I chanced a glimpse at my mom’s face.  I almost lost it when I saw the moisture in her eyes.  She gasped as emotion caught her and put a hand over her mouth to cover the sound.  Of sadness, confusion?  I fought back my own emotions knowing we weren’t feeling overcome for the same reasons.  Perhaps she was mourning the man she thought I was while I was mourning someone I could never be.  Not anymore.  I wanted my parents to be proud of me… to accept me.  I’d always been a “pleaser”, but I couldn’t play that part if it meant losing Aaron.

We quietly composed ourselves and I signaled the waiter for another drink.  I needed it.

“Mom?”

“No, I’ll stick with this one for a bit longer.”  She tilted her head toward her half full wineglass.

“So, tell me about Aaron.  He must be special if… well, he must be special.”

I smiled and finally ended up laughing.  Relief does that I suppose.  I knew this was a beginning of sorts, a sputtering start, but it still felt good.  Good to have the words spoken aloud, good to start afresh.

 

Better Than Candy… part 2 (Matt & Aaron’s Valentine Story) NSFW!!

Here it is… Part 2!  Be aware, the content is naturally MM and this portion is rated NSFW :-).  If it’s not your cup of tea, please move on.

Thank you all and enjoy!

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Better Than Candy by Lane Hayes

 

Chapter 1 cont…

 

By the time I was back in the kitchen unpacking my ingredients, I had expertly filed her impending visit under “things to deal with later” and decided to get on with the business at hand.  Cooking was going to require all my faculties.

Aaron sent me a text before he left his office letting me know he was on his way home.  He had made it clear months ago I was welcome to use his place to study or hang out, but there were no expectations I’d be waiting for him or that we sleep together every night.  It just seemed to work out that way more and more often.  I doubted he was overly surprised when I answered his text saying that I was still at his place. 

I sprang into action trying to clean the colossal mess I’d made.  I wished there was a door I could shut so he wouldn’t be aware of the chaos I stirred up creating my first-ever homemade pasta dinner.  No such luck.  The kitchen was a small galley style one with a pass-through counter making it partially visible from the living area.  I moved a potted plant strategically to the middle in a panic but I wasn’t sure it would do much to distract from the mess on the other side.  I almost moved it back thinking Aaron’s keen eye would catch my clumsy attempt at hiding a mess and actually draw him right to it.  He was going to freak.  There was tomato sauce everywhere.  I cleaned the biggest spots but then noticed all the tiny red flecks that seemed to dot every fucking surface in the kitchen.  If my pasta didn’t kill him, he might just kill me.  Aaron had a thing about neat and clean. 

I gave the kitchen a once over with a sponge and promised myself I’d do a better job later.  I then set the table for two and opened a bottle of wine before jumping in the shower to take a quick rinse.  I had just pulled a clean shirt over my head when I heard Aaron’s key in the lock.  Picking up my pace, I turned some music on low and hurried to greet my boyfriend. 

 

“Hey.”  

“Hi…” Aaron came further into his apartment, looked at the set table and then in my direction curiously. 

I crossed the room to pull him into my arms, taking a moment to appreciate how amazing he felt and smelled.  I nipped at his ear and kissed his lips before letting him go.

 

“Welcome home, baby.”

 

“What are you up to?  Why is the table set?  Did you get take out?  I have to admit, I am hun—gry!”  He looked me up and down as if looking for a clue, but he didn’t seem overly concerned as he moved past me to get to his bedroom.  I noticed him give the plant a second look, but thankfully he didn’t stop to adjust it or ask how it got there.

 

“I’m going to take a quick shower and change.  I feel sticky.”  He was already undressing, pulling off his belt and unbuttoning his shirt.  Everything in me wanted to stop and watch him strip, but I mentally shook myself and backed up.

“Okay, I’ll pour you a glass of wine.  Take your time, okay?”

 

I caught him giving me another curious glance, but turned away before he could ask questions.  Back in the kitchen, I submerged the pasta noodles in the boiling water, setting a timer for them as my mom had instructed and then poured a couple glasses of vino.  Aaron came out freshly showered and more comfortably attired in work out shorts, a snug fitted tank top and bare feet.  My dick jumped to attention.  He looked effortlessly beautiful with his damp tousled hair and casual clothes.   I must have been staring.  Aaron cleared his throat and held his hand out to take one of the two wine glasses I was holding.  His lop-sided grin was amused. 

“You are up to something.  Fess up!”  He raised an eyebrow and took a sip of his wine.

 

“Well…” Saved by the timer!  “I’ll be right back.  Um…can you maybe just take a seat on the sofa while I bring dinner out?”

 

“O-kay…” 

 

I hurried to the kitchen to get the noodles off the stove before they turned mushy.  I found the colander and a bowl for the pasta.  Of course, I created another splatter mess when I poured the sauce from the pan over the noodles too quickly.  I swore under my breath.  Anything out loud would cause Aaron to come investigate and my goal was to get dinner on the table with no assistance from the head chef.   Taking a deep breath, I set the salad and pasta bowls on the table.

 

“What is all this?”  Aaron had moved from the sofa and was watching me warily as if trying to figure out a puzzle.

 

“I made dinner.”  I think I actually blushed.  I could feel my face get warm as I chanced a glimpse to see if Aaron was still standing nearby. 

 

He walked tentatively toward the table and peeked at the caesar salad and bowl of pasta before looking directly into my eyes. 

 

“You made me dinner?” 

If I wasn’t standing right next to him, I might have missed what he said.  His voice was soft and full of wonder.

 

“Yes.  Um…here…sit.”  I pulled his chair out for him and waited until he sat down before taking the seat next to him.

 

“Very simple, really. Caesar salad and pasta with vodka sauce.  Oh, and bread.  Fuck!  I’ll be right back!”  I jumped out of my chair and ran over to the oven to pull out the very toasty extra-crusty bread.  I shrugged.  My guess was that it was still edible.  I cut a few slices and brought them to the table on a plate.  Aaron looked up at me when I returned with an unreadable expression on his face.

 

“It’s overdone.  Sorry.  I should have set a timer for the bread too.  I think it’s still good.”

 

He was so quiet.  So not Aaron.

 

“You okay?  Give it a try.  I think it tastes alright.  I tried it to make sure I wasn’t going to endanger either of us, and I think I followed the directions correctly.  It’s a vodka sauce.  I added sausage too.  And the salad is just basic.  Well, really it’s all pretty bas…” 

 

“Shhh, Matt.  Stop.” 

 

He was right, I was babbling.  My face still felt like I’d been out in the sun all day rather than over a hot stove.  I was on pins and needles waiting for his verdict. 

 

“Try it.”

 

Aaron’s eyes looked suspiciously wet.  He hadn’t seen the kitchen up close yet.  It couldn’t be that.

 

“Thank you.”  He said softly.

 

“Babe, you haven’t even tried it.  Just see if…”

 

“Matty.  Shhh.  I can’t wait to try it.”  He looked away from me as if pulling together some thoughts.  “You actually… wow.  This is pretty… No one’s ever made me dinner before.”

 

He caught my incredulous look and qualified his statement.  “Yes, my family and my friends have, but not… someone important.  This is…  thank you, Matty.”  He kissed my lips softly, almost shyly before leaning back in his chair.

 

I couldn’t say a word.  I was overwhelmed myself in a way.  No one had made him dinner before, and the flip side was that I had never made anyone dinner before him.  I wondered what it meant, if anything.

 

Aaron was soon back to being his playful self, unfolding his napkin with a flourish before setting it on his lap.  He picked up his fork and made a big production of taking a bite of salad before keeling over his chair to lie flat on his back on the floor next to my feet.

 

I rolled my eyes.  “Ha ha.  Very funny.  Now try the pasta.  You may have that reaction for real.”  I warned.

 

“Just teasing, darling.”  He hopped back on his feet with catlike grace and picked up his fork again.  “First, tell me all about the recipe.  Is it a super family secret recipe?  Will you be disinherited for sharing it with me?  Or is it…”

 

“Take a bite, funny guy.  I got the recipe off the internet.  No big secret.  I did ask my mom for a little assistance though.” 

 

Aaron went completely still.

 

“Wait.  You looked it up and asked your mom for help too?”

 

“Well, she happened to call when I was leaving for the store, so… Just take a bite.  I think you’re stalling now.”

 

He winked at me before gamely raising a fork full of pasta to his mouth.

 

“Very good.”

 

“You’re just saying that.”  I picked up my own fork and decided it actually wasn’t bad after all.

 

 “What do you think?”  He challenged me.

 

“I think it’s pretty good, for a first ever effort.”

 

Aaron grinned widely and took another bite before he began to regale me with tidbits of his day at the office.  Aaron-style.  That meant his hands were moving a mile a minute and his facial expressions and voice modulations changed theatrically to suit the story.  I laughed appreciatively at his over-embellished tales of office woes.  He had a way of making even the most mundane daily happenings sound interesting.   When we were finished, Aaron stood and began to gather plates.

 

“You cooked, I’ll clean.”  He was off and moving toward the kitchen before I could stop him.

 

“No!  I’ll do it!”  I jumped up after him, but I was too late.

 

“Holy fuck!”  Aaron stared at the pots and pans stacked in the sink, the bits of pasta stuck in the colander sitting on the counter alongside numerous crumbs courtesy of the over baked bread.  I didn’t think he’d seen all the renegade tomato sauce spots yet. 

 

“I know, I know.  I’ll do it.  Don’t worry.”

 

 Aaron stood perfectly still before slowly letting out a breath.

 

“Honey.  There is no way you can do this yourself in one night to my admittedly high standards.  We’ll do it together.” 

 

So we did.  I washed the bigger pots and pans, and tackled the crumb problem while Aaron scoured the cook top, ridding it of the offending sauce spots.  He had cranked up his favorite dance music at one point to make the job a bit more fun, he claimed.  Usually the incessant jungle-like beat gave me a splitting headache but this time, it made me smile as I looked over at my guy bopping away to his techno noise while he sang out loud and off key for my entertainment. 

 

When everything was cleaned and stored away per Aaron’s obsessive-compulsive requirements, he spun around the kitchen’s small space with his arms in the air. 

 

“Miracles do happen!”

 

I caught him in my arms and backed him up against the counter.  He was gyrating his hips to the music still playing as he looked seductively up into my eyes.  Damn, sexy sexy.  My hands were all over him.  Over his chest, down his back, cupping his ass.  His lycra shorts made it incredibly easy to feel how turned on he was by our proximity.  I lowered my hips so we were closer to the same height and ground my hardening cock against his.  Our lips locked a heated kiss.  Aaron pushed me away slightly and jumped backward onto the counter top.   He smiled slyly before using his strong legs to pull me against him.   I was desperate for skin.  I wanted to feel him against me.  I took a half step back and stripped my shirt off then took the hem of Aaron’s shirt and lifted his over his head as well.  He yanked me forward so that finally our naked chests touched.  Our hands and arms were wrapped up in one another like a pair of octopi.  My hands in his hair, his hands down my back, dipping into the back of my shorts along my crack.  Fuck.  Shorts had to go. 

 

“C’mon baby.  Let’s go to bed.”  I ran kisses up and down the column of his throat, whispering in his ear.

 

“No.  Stay.  This is so sexy.” 

 

I paused to look at him.

 

“We need supplies or do you not want to…?”

 

Aaron opened a drawer next to him with his toes and leaned over to retrieve a condom package.  His attention was caught by something lying next to the latex wrapper.  It was the half-empty box of candy hearts he’d shared with me yesterday.  He shoved the condom at me and pulled out a single heart.  I gulped when he licked his lips and brought his fingers to my mouth, slipping the candy inside.  I sucked on his fingers, loving the sheer sensuality of the act and the look of intense lust in my lover’s eyes.

 

“It said “Fuck Me” Matty, so you better do it.”

 

While I had my doubts about the inscription on the heart, I certainly wasn’t going to argue.  I entered my lover carefully, but he quickly urged me on, digging his ankles into my ass.  He wanted harder, faster and more.  We fucked madly and passionately, clawing at each other to get closer and find the right angle.  It didn’t take long before I lost control finally coming apart with a deep growl.  I rode out the after shocks of my intense orgasm holding my lover closely as his release claimed him.  We stayed locked in that awkward embrace for another minute before gently untangling ourselves.

 

“Fuck!”  We said at the same time.  We laughed and looked at the sweaty, sticky mess we’d made in the kitchen. 

 

“At least it should be easier to clean than pasta sauce, right?”  I kissed his temple and dragged him off toward the shower, before he decided to pick up a sponge and get to work.

 

 

 

Thursday in a Better Than…World.

ImageBusy day!  I’m a guest on author, Rob Colton’s blog chatting about Better Than Chance.  Come check it out please… 

http://robcolton.com/post/75770241815/guest-post-lane-hayes

And later this afternoon, I will be back with the second installment of Better Than Candy featuring Matt & Aaron from Better Than Good.  Warning!!  The next one is definitely NSFW!! 

Have a great Thursday!

Lane

Better Than Candy… part 1 (Matt & Aaron’s Valentine Story)

ImageFirst of all… Thank you to all who responded with an emphatic YES! to my earlier post gaging interest in a little Matt & Aaron story before Valentine’s Day.  It is called Better Than Candy.  If you haven’t already done so, please follow this blog for updates.  My plan is to post the continuing story daily until the 14th.  Some parts are definitely NSFW.  I will warn you in the title of the blog (in case you take a peek at work :-).  Remember, this is not an edited work, so please excuse any punctuation errors.  I try but… you know things slip sometimes.

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Lane 

 

 

Better Than Candy by Lane Hayes

Chapter 1

 

“What’s your favorite color candy heart?”

“Huh?”

“You know, like the Valentine ones?  Mine is pink… no cracks please, followed closely by purple.”

“Uh…”

“Matty! You must have an opinion!  Conversation hearts are a childhood staple.  You may not love them but you grew up with them.  Go on, pick a color!” 

 Aaron gave me an irritated look, cocking his head to the right for dramatic effect.  His dark hair fell enticingly into his beautiful hazel eyes.

I set aside the textbook I’d been nose deep in and gave my boyfriend a “what the fuck are you talking about?” look.  My bar exam was a couple short weeks away.  My brain was tuned in to contractual aspects of trusts and future interests… not candy hearts.  Plus it was July not February.  The mental gearshift was enough to make me blink in an effort to focus.  What was going in Aaron’s head?

“Before you ask, I found a miraculous surviving box of confectionary happiness in one of my kitchen drawers when I was making dinner earlier.  Amazing, right?” 

 While his attempt at distracting me wasn’t exactly subtle, his intentions were good.  I’d been putting in crazy long hours studying for the bar exam so I’d be prepared for the two-days of torturous testing coming my way at the end of the month.  Professionally, financially and mentally, it was the key to starting my life as a contributing member of society.  Not the key to my happiness, but it was an important goal to me nonetheless.

 The key to my happiness was the guy sitting cross-legged facing me on the sofa chattering away about candy (which I’d never seen him eat) because he didn’t want me to overdo my time with the books.  He worried I wasn’t getting enough sleep and time to relax.  He made dinner almost every night at his place insisting it was because he was concerned I’d be eating pizzas and takeout if left to my own devices.  The partial truth was Aaron was a great cook and loved to be in the kitchen.  But it was also true that he liked looking after me… or nagging me as I often teased him.

I didn’t mind.  For the first time in my life I was in love.  Really, truly, head over heels… and nothing was as I expected.  Like my family and everyone who knew me before I met Aaron, I assumed I’d marry a nice girl and eventually move to the suburbs to raise a family.  I knew I was bisexual but I ignored the part of me that was attracted to men.  It was just too complicated.  I couldn’t ignore Aaron.  Once he came along, I tossed aside all preconceived notions and decided to enjoy the journey.

So instead of a girlfriend, I had a boyfriend.  A high maintenance Puerto Rican American boyfriend with had a fondness for lip gloss and sometimes eyeliner, who always kept me on my toes.  I had never met anyone like him.  He was passionate, silly and never predictable.  We were complete and total opposites.  I was tall at six foot one with the muscular build of the former athlete I was, while Aaron was easily five inches shorter with the lean toned physique of a runner.  I was fair with light brown hair and blue eyes while Aaron was olive skinned with dark hair that constantly fell into his eyes.  I loved sports, hanging out with my friends and playing my guitar.   Aaron loved techno pop music, dancing and fashion.  Go figure.

 He was adventurous and lively with an innate kindness that seemed to draw people to him.  And he was fucking gorgeous.  Truly the most beautiful person I’d ever met.  I really would never understand what he saw in me, but I certainly wasn’t going to argue. 

 I set my book on the coffee table in front of me and opened my arms in invitation.  Aaron flashed me one of his full-watt beautiful smiles as he crawled in between my thighs, wiggled his perfect ass directly into my crotch and he settled his back against my chest.  I forgot what it was we were talking about in the first place as I breathed him in.

“Here.  This one is for you.”

I opened my mouth for him to pop a piece of candy in, but he pulled it away and turned in my arms to face me.  “No silly.  Read it.”

It said “Kiss Me”.  I turned his chin gently with my thumb and softly brushed my lips against his.  Aaron moaned and turned a little more, licking my lower lip as he deepened the kiss.  Our tongues danced lazily.  I could taste the sugary sweetness in his mouth.  I decided I liked the pink ones too.  I pulled back and declared it was my turn to find a heart for him.  He rolled his eyes but handed over the half empty box.

I poured a couple in my hand and immediately found the one I wanted.  In purple.  I kissed the nape of his neck and then showed him my prize, cradling the tiny piece of candy in my palm like a precious gift.  His body was faced forward, his back fully leaning into me.  But I felt his muscles tense. 

“I Love You”.  I wouldn’t stop saying the words.  I knew them to be true.  I stifled a sigh and wrapped my lover tightly in my arms, squeezing him playfully before taking the candy and shoving it between his lips.  He made a straight firm line with his mouth making it difficult work the piece in, so I resorted to tickling his sides before attempting again.  This time when he turned in my arms and licked at my lips, he broke the heart in half with his teeth and fed me one side. 

Interesting.  I’m not great at reading in between the lines, but I had learned in a relatively short time Aaron communicated in many ways… and not always with words.   Maybe in his own convoluted way he was telling me he loved me too.  Or maybe he was half sure he did?

 

I spent the next day at Aaron’s apartment studying while he was at work.  He was an assistant to the editor in chief of a fashion magazine and usually had somewhat normal office hours, which made his place ideally quiet during the daytime.  When it was time to take a break, inspiration struck.  I made a quick list and headed out to the grocery store, taking his spare key from the orange bowl on the kitchen table.   My cell phone rang just as I neared my car on the street in front of his building.  It was my mother.

“Hi Mom.” 

“Hi sweetheart!  How are you?  I miss you.  What are you doing?”

“I’m good.  I’m actually heading to the market for ingredients for a pasta dish I’m going to attempt tonight.”

Silence.

“Mom?”

“You’re cooking?”

“Ha ha.  Very funny.”

“Actually it’s not.”  My mom was hysterical.  “Please tell me you aren’t doing this to your new girlfriend?”

“First of all, I don’t have a girlfriend.  And second…”

“Sorry, sorry.  Your new special someone?  Matt, that just isn’t nice.”

“What isn’t nice?  My cooking?”

“Sorry honey, but…  Yes!  Tell me exactly what you have in mind.  Maybe I can help you out.”

I wanted to be insulted but she spoke the truth.  I was not known for much in the kitchen besides boiling water and pouring cereal.  Still…

“I’m not trying anything gourmet.  Don’t worry.  I found a recipe online for pasta with vodka sauce.  It looked easy enough.”

“You actually looked up a recipe?  Wow!  Who is this lucky girl?  Erin, right?  I cannot wait to meet someone who rates you going through the effort to look up a real recipe rather than opening a jar of store bought sauce.”  While she chuckled at my ineptitude, I cringed at her assumption my “special someone” was a girl.  I’d given them his name or maybe my roommate Curt had let it slip to my family during graduation, but I hadn’t set them straight (pun intended).  They didn’t know who Aaron was or how crazy I was for him. Or that he was a man.

My family was the final frontier, the last and most important piece of my “coming out” process.  I was planning on doing it in person but the timing had been off so far. 

“Are you done making fun of me now?  Any helpful hints besides buy the store bought for back up?”   I kept my tone light and jocular as I threw some romaine lettuce in my basket.

My mom laughed heartily, then asked for the breakdown of ingredients.

She supplied advice about how much garlic to use (a decent amount, but not too much)…  I was going to have to wing it with advice like that… how much olive oil (a lot!), and how to make my own salad dressing versus buying pre-made (wasn’t going to happen).  I had a basket full of groceries and was getting ready to sign off when she dropped a bomb on me that nearly had me dropping my newly gathered ingredients all over the market floor.

“Sweetheart, good luck with your dinner tonight.  Follow the instructions and I’m sure it will be wonderful.  Call me if you have any questions.”

“Okay.  Thanks Mom.”

“Oh wait!  Your cooking experiment made me forget why I called in the first place.  I’m coming to DC to visit you!”

Silence.

I got that all over instant body sweat that occurs under situations of extreme duress.   Fuck! 

“O-kay… but Mom…you know I’m busy studying for the bar.  It’s not really a good time.”  I was stalling and probably coming across as a complete ass, but the sheen of sweat slaking over my skin had since given me a chill.  I was feeling panicky.

“Oh please.  Knowing you, you’ve been studying non-stop since graduation.  It’s only one night.  I’m actually going to meet your Aunt Jill in Virginia but I arranged to stop in DC first.  I’ll take you to dinner.  Feel free to invite Erin too.  One night.  Then I’ll be out of your hair.  I promise.”

She rattled off the date, which was ten short days away.  I gulped and took a deep breath.

“Sounds good.”  What else could I say?  I paid, bagged my own groceries and drove back to Aaron’s in a total daze.

(to be continued…)

 

 

Aaron & Matt Valentine Idea…Thoughts?

ImageI wrote a short story (15K words) about Valentine’s Day featuring Aaron and Matt from Better Than Good.  It gives a glimpse into their first year as a couple and Matt’s coming out to his family.  Personally, I like detail and had I been writing a full length novel, the scenes would have been more fleshed out to capture the intensity and significance of Matt’s struggle.  However, I’m a reader first and when my readers tell me they want more…I feel the author in me should share what I’ve already written.  It hasn’t been properly edited, but hey…it’s free!  And as with most of my stories, it is NSFW.  Sorry, I like sex.  Especially in my books!

My thought is to post a portion of the story everyday leading up to Valentine’s Day beginning with a post this afternoon.  Thoughts?

Instant Gratification & an Exclusive Excerpt from Better Than Chance at The Novel Approach Today!

ImageAnd… then there is the $25 gift card to an online book seller of choice plus an ebook copy of Better Than Chance.  What?  I know.  If you haven’t yet had the…”chance” (sorry, I can’t seem to help myself) to read Better Than Good.  Do not worry.  You won’t be lost.  Better Than Chance actually takes place before my first book, BTG.  I totally understand wanting to keep order when reading a series.  As a kid I used to read my Nancy Drew books numerically.  I could go a little sideways when I realized the library didn’t have the next copy.  There was no Amazon with Prime Membership back then.  You had to go from bookstore to bookstore to find the volume you were missing if the library was out.  Either that or wait for the idiot who was sitting on The Clue in the Diary accruing fines while you anxiously waited for word the missing link book had finally been returned.  It was agony!  Really.  

So feel confident I’m being honest when I say you won’t be frustrated that you didn’t know how xy and z happened in Better Than Chance because you didn’t read Better Than Good.  And be grateful for modern life and the luxury of instant downloads and instant gratification.  A book lovers paradise!

Check out my post at The Novel Approach today & by the way, they gave Better Than Chance 4 stars too!  Love those guys!

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4.5 Stars for Better Than Chance at Joyfully Jay Reviews! Yeah!!

JImageay and Peter have gotten lots of love this week.  Thank you to Amy at Joyfully Jay for her fabulous review of Better Than Chance!  Please take a look!  

http://joyfullyjay.com/2014/01/review-better-than-chance-by-lane-hayes.html

Also… there is still an opportunity to win an ebook copy of my new book at Sid Love’s Blog:

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Happy Friday and Happy Reading all!

Lane

Thank You to Dani at SidLove! I’m there today chatting about Better Than Chance!

ImageI want to extend a special thank you to Dani, at SidLove today. She graciously agreed to host me on the blog before reading Better Than Chance at the beginning of January.  Thankfully she liked it!  She gave Better Than Chance a fantastic 5 Star Review last week.  Woohoo! As a relatively new member of the community, I’m grateful for the opportunity to showcase my work and thankful to the blog sites and authors who are generous with their audiences.  SO… thank you, thank you!

And please go visit!  There is a “chance to win” Better Than Chance.  Jay & Peter are pretty awesome.  You don’t want to miss out!

http://sidlove.com/2014/01/29/guest-post-giveaway-better-than-chance-by-lane-hayes/

Sid Love Review of Better Than Chance:

http://sidlove.com/2014/01/22/release-day-review-better-than-chance-by-lane-hayes/